Reading, oh reading! :-)

“A book is proof that humans are capable of working magic.”  – Carl Sagan

“Reading is the work of an alert mind, is demanding, and under ideal conditions produces finally a sort of ecstasy.”  – E.B. White

I love reading. I don’t read as much as I would like to. Sometimes I’m so tired and brain-fried that I only read lightweight things (headlines, blurbs, gossip articles, etc.) or watch TV. Not that TV can’t be stimulating and thought-provoking but on the whole, reading something substantial requires more effort on my part. And this makes me sad. Am I artificially creating this choice for myself? “I’m too tired and therefore, I can’t or won’t read this interesting book”…? I can’t tell. I feel too tired but I do want to read more…but I don’t want to feel like I’m being forced to reading just because I feel like I should.

I remember how fun and incredibly…awesome…I found reading, fiction specifically. I used to forgo spending time with friends and family to finish a book because…well, I just felt so immersed and the worlds in books seemed so fascinating, even when they were disturbing (I found books like 1984, Animal Farm, Lord of the Flies, etc. so involving, so detailed and layered, but they left a bad taste in my mouth…probably because of how well the authors were able to create their worlds…and that is why I will probably never re-read those books!). And I wasn’t particularly socially awkward and I always felt included. I don’t feel like I retreated into books. I’m not sure if this is sad or depressing but often I chose reading over more social events. Haha, my personality is more low-key and introverted so I was/am probably more predisposed to quiet activities but still, like I said, I never felt like books were a solace necessarily…I just loved reading.

Right now, the mid-point for me, I guess, is reading other people’s thoughts and essays about interesting things…they’re both thought-provoking and stimulating but shorter and while they cause me to think about ideas and issues, these types of articles don’t require me to start completely from scratch…

Anyway…yet another ode to reading from me, haha :-).

I’m thankful for…

  1. My health. I know, I know. But I feel like, especially recently, I’m becoming more and more conscious of how fragile or unpredictable one’s health can be. I’m not the healthiest person I know and I don’t have great, super-healthy habits (I love fried foods…a lot…I’m so not kidding) but I’m trying to change and I think being mindful is important (and hard).

  2. My family. Again…I know, so cliche :-P. But recently, some work-related things started building up and I thought I was doing a good job not bringing my friends down with my frustrations and issues…and then during a brief conversation with my sister about planning a family event, I started sobbing. I was only trying to let her know about a change in my schedule that was due to those work-related things (and apologize for being difficult) and I couldn’t really get that mostly informational sentence out. My sister was awesome. Angry on my behalf, sympathetic to my stress and practical in her advice (which is what I respond to best and she knows this :-)). After a little rant of her own (the anger and sympathy part :-P), she told me to go take a walk and get something to eat. And then she allowed me to talk about our plans instead of pushing me to vent ad nauseum about my problems, which would have only gotten me more stressed out. Discussing a little about the original reason for the phone call allowed me to feel like I was accomplishing something and it was comforting. I love her :-).

  3. My cat…who is currently trying to turn on her back next to my laptop. Heh, she likes the heat vent, I think. But she’s…a little round…and I’m working on quite a small table…so there’s not much room. It’s funny :-P. When I’m working on things that have a deadline (almost everything), she could be annoying, trying to get my attention and reminding me why I shouldn’t try working on certain things at home…but I love her. She is a source of endless amusement (she’s trying to kill my pen right now) and I’m sure I’m amusing to her too. I’m probably projecting but her “you dumb human” face is awesome.